Today I got my PEP cancelled.
I have to the 27th of June to leave Singers.
Thursday, May 28
Sunday, May 24
Sex Education
Good morning children.
Today we are going to talk about penises.
Daddy has a penis, mummy doesn't, she has a vagina.
Daddy loves mummy so much that when she takes her clothes off his penis gets big and hard. This is called an erection.
Then daddy puts his penis into mummy's vagina.
Daddy likes this, and ooooohhh mummy loves it too!
Daddy also puts his penis into mummy's mouth and anus.
And mummy and daddy both like that as well.
He would put it into her ear if it was big enough.
What would mummy think about that?
"Woo Hooo!! One bitch, five holes!" daddy would say.
Daddies are like that.
Today we are going to talk about penises.
Daddy has a penis, mummy doesn't, she has a vagina.
Daddy loves mummy so much that when she takes her clothes off his penis gets big and hard. This is called an erection.
Then daddy puts his penis into mummy's vagina.
Daddy likes this, and ooooohhh mummy loves it too!
Daddy also puts his penis into mummy's mouth and anus.
And mummy and daddy both like that as well.
He would put it into her ear if it was big enough.
What would mummy think about that?
"Woo Hooo!! One bitch, five holes!" daddy would say.
Daddies are like that.
Saturday, May 23
Analytics
Okay, I am just popping in here 'cos I have just checked my google analytics.
Visitors up by a third, nearly all from Singers (no surprise I guess).
The SGers spent an average of just over five minutes on my blog site, which awes me - am I that interesting to read? Most of the non-SGers spent zero time, what does that mean? Click in, see that it is not written in Turkish, click out?
Here's the really wow thing; less than half of the Singers were new visitors. Can you believe that most of them return? (I ask because I can't.) And get this, 40% of them read beyond the first page, actually dug into the past posts.
This is so WOW!!!
If I can magnify this one thousand fold then I will be more popular than Xiaxue(!) and can earn my living blogging. I can dig that, at least you will know that I would blog EVERY DAY!!!! And not leave it blank for nearly TWO WEEKS!!! And that I usually write about three pages (in MS Word, font size 12 - that's where I spell check it since IE doesn't spell check, Firefox does, but I've gone off it for a while). Also I promise that I would live a much more interesting life than now, so you would have something better to read about, my life now is only good for wrapping chips in (sad face).
I can't turn into a pretty girl and cam-whore though.
Visitors up by a third, nearly all from Singers (no surprise I guess).
The SGers spent an average of just over five minutes on my blog site, which awes me - am I that interesting to read? Most of the non-SGers spent zero time, what does that mean? Click in, see that it is not written in Turkish, click out?
Here's the really wow thing; less than half of the Singers were new visitors. Can you believe that most of them return? (I ask because I can't.) And get this, 40% of them read beyond the first page, actually dug into the past posts.
This is so WOW!!!
If I can magnify this one thousand fold then I will be more popular than Xiaxue(!) and can earn my living blogging. I can dig that, at least you will know that I would blog EVERY DAY!!!! And not leave it blank for nearly TWO WEEKS!!! And that I usually write about three pages (in MS Word, font size 12 - that's where I spell check it since IE doesn't spell check, Firefox does, but I've gone off it for a while). Also I promise that I would live a much more interesting life than now, so you would have something better to read about, my life now is only good for wrapping chips in (sad face).
I can't turn into a pretty girl and cam-whore though.
Oh, Yeah...
Got my VISA card going early last week (I think it was). Transferred from my SG HSBC account to pay off the requisite amounts, gave it a couple of working days, then called their financial hounds section. Which was okay, as they turned out to be Australian, so I got some communicating done - something that does not happen with their Indian call centre or Indian email centre, lots of talk but no service.
And got the washing machine going, service man came around the day after I called, writing an email was a waste of time, but I thought that it could get forwarded to the correct team more easily, doesn't work like that though, just came back three days later "please phone". The problem was the most basic of design faults, a fragile plastic tab juts down on the lid and contains a metallic strip that activates the door open / door closed switch. Naturally fragile bits of plastic get snapped off, any idiot could figure that out, but not the design engineers at LG. Took less than two minutes to fix, just opened the top up and wired the switch out, then warned me that it won't stop when the lid is opened now.
Spent the day at home 'cos the repairman was coming and, to be honest, I just don't feel like doing anything right now, so played Fear 2 all day long. How productive, hey?
And got the washing machine going, service man came around the day after I called, writing an email was a waste of time, but I thought that it could get forwarded to the correct team more easily, doesn't work like that though, just came back three days later "please phone". The problem was the most basic of design faults, a fragile plastic tab juts down on the lid and contains a metallic strip that activates the door open / door closed switch. Naturally fragile bits of plastic get snapped off, any idiot could figure that out, but not the design engineers at LG. Took less than two minutes to fix, just opened the top up and wired the switch out, then warned me that it won't stop when the lid is opened now.
Spent the day at home 'cos the repairman was coming and, to be honest, I just don't feel like doing anything right now, so played Fear 2 all day long. How productive, hey?
Thursday, May 21
Drown my Sorrows
I can't believe that it is Thursday already!
Where has the week gone?
Okay I was aware of Tuesday, I went to the cluster of temples at Tampines, I looked at all of them, but only the Guan Gong temple kindled any attraction. The two old guys there, as there are usually lay people at temples and rarely any priests - religion is so 'self service' in Singapore! Anyhow, the two old guys couldn't speak any English, as usual!, but they were friendly and as helpful as they could be and for the first time I got to pray at a Chinese temple. When I came back, after looking at the other temples, there was a girl there that could speak English and showed me how to pray properly Chinese style, which was very educational and just what I wanted.
Never the less...
it is Thursday and I will be voiding my work pass on Friday next week (end of the month, being the last month I can stay without finding work) so Guan Gong has one week only(!) to deliver.
I am so fed up with being disappointed by deities that if this one lets me down then I will stop paying them any mind and become some sort of esoteric rationalist, believing in the existence of the non-physical but deeming it to be meaningless. In my experience so far Gods never deliver on what they promise. Nature spirits deliver on what you ask of them, but they totally don't understand the constraints that such requests come packaged in for humans and so I end up getting what I specifically asked for, but in a manner or with attendant consequences that far outweigh the benefits of the gift. So I won't ever be doing that again.
My washing machine is not working, it gives a 'door open' alarm when the door is closed and will not proceed. It does the 'get everything wet' bit, so now I have a stack of towels that smell and will need to be re-washed, and perhaps just thrown out. I also have a stack of washing that needs to be done and will have to visit a laundromat. Contacted LG (of course, LG, you could see that coming couldn't you? Well, my landlady bought cheap shit, what can I say) and they took two and a half days to tell me to ring this other number and have my receipt when they come (because it is new). I have passed all of this on to the landlady and am still waiting for a reply, so I am expecting total time out of action of at least two weeks. When it is such a small machine, and I have only the contents of one suitcase, so I do two or three loads every week, the laundromat will be a necessity.
Incidentally, I will have to tell her mid/late next week that I haven't found work and will be heading back to Australia. That gives her the one months notice, and I will use the first week or two of June to clean up and clean out, then fly back in the second week. My bond being forfeit as the break fee. (I was insistent on getting a diplomatic clause in the lease agreement, but it was fixed to only the six month point and incurs a one month break fee.)
I have only let a couple of people in my 'business network' know that I will be returning, and that only yesterday, but I already have one possible deal in the process of being lined up. See how different it is from Singers? And it will pay four times what I was offered in SG if I can get it via my private company and don't have to go through an agency (which sometimes have to do for government contracts).
I have learnt from this experience though.
Not just that SG doesn't take my line of work seriously and so only pays less than half what I can get anywhere else on Earth. And not just that coming here expecting to be able to transfer my career to another country and (business) culture was erroneous and that I should have gotten the job lined up before I came here, or came here to start a business (with all of its attendant components prepared to go in advance). No, I have also had to face a number of flaws imbedded within my character - but I am still unsure of what to do about them. For example being so lackadaisical about things, trusting too much that things would work out, expecting things to be similar to what I am used to back in Oz. I really wish that I had gotten out and done more 'stuff' instead of focussing on job hunting so much (now that I know the job hunting was a total waste of time).
In a way I will be going 'home' bitter and disappointed. When I get the wherewithal lined up for the next try it will probably be Hong Kong that beckons, although I am starting to thing about Japan. Maybe I should learn some Japanese and see if I like it (the way I loved learning some Russian), then try a week or two there as a quick holiday, then if all goes well an extended stay of a couple of months (definitely limited to two months this time!), meanwhile looking at what the job scene is like and then try for a job there whilst I am still in Australia!
Who knows? I might still go the route of retiring to the Australian outback and growing my own food and while away my twilight years playing Unreal Tournament.
What's Thailand like?
Where has the week gone?
Okay I was aware of Tuesday, I went to the cluster of temples at Tampines, I looked at all of them, but only the Guan Gong temple kindled any attraction. The two old guys there, as there are usually lay people at temples and rarely any priests - religion is so 'self service' in Singapore! Anyhow, the two old guys couldn't speak any English, as usual!, but they were friendly and as helpful as they could be and for the first time I got to pray at a Chinese temple. When I came back, after looking at the other temples, there was a girl there that could speak English and showed me how to pray properly Chinese style, which was very educational and just what I wanted.
Never the less...
it is Thursday and I will be voiding my work pass on Friday next week (end of the month, being the last month I can stay without finding work) so Guan Gong has one week only(!) to deliver.
I am so fed up with being disappointed by deities that if this one lets me down then I will stop paying them any mind and become some sort of esoteric rationalist, believing in the existence of the non-physical but deeming it to be meaningless. In my experience so far Gods never deliver on what they promise. Nature spirits deliver on what you ask of them, but they totally don't understand the constraints that such requests come packaged in for humans and so I end up getting what I specifically asked for, but in a manner or with attendant consequences that far outweigh the benefits of the gift. So I won't ever be doing that again.
My washing machine is not working, it gives a 'door open' alarm when the door is closed and will not proceed. It does the 'get everything wet' bit, so now I have a stack of towels that smell and will need to be re-washed, and perhaps just thrown out. I also have a stack of washing that needs to be done and will have to visit a laundromat. Contacted LG (of course, LG, you could see that coming couldn't you? Well, my landlady bought cheap shit, what can I say) and they took two and a half days to tell me to ring this other number and have my receipt when they come (because it is new). I have passed all of this on to the landlady and am still waiting for a reply, so I am expecting total time out of action of at least two weeks. When it is such a small machine, and I have only the contents of one suitcase, so I do two or three loads every week, the laundromat will be a necessity.
Incidentally, I will have to tell her mid/late next week that I haven't found work and will be heading back to Australia. That gives her the one months notice, and I will use the first week or two of June to clean up and clean out, then fly back in the second week. My bond being forfeit as the break fee. (I was insistent on getting a diplomatic clause in the lease agreement, but it was fixed to only the six month point and incurs a one month break fee.)
I have only let a couple of people in my 'business network' know that I will be returning, and that only yesterday, but I already have one possible deal in the process of being lined up. See how different it is from Singers? And it will pay four times what I was offered in SG if I can get it via my private company and don't have to go through an agency (which sometimes have to do for government contracts).
I have learnt from this experience though.
Not just that SG doesn't take my line of work seriously and so only pays less than half what I can get anywhere else on Earth. And not just that coming here expecting to be able to transfer my career to another country and (business) culture was erroneous and that I should have gotten the job lined up before I came here, or came here to start a business (with all of its attendant components prepared to go in advance). No, I have also had to face a number of flaws imbedded within my character - but I am still unsure of what to do about them. For example being so lackadaisical about things, trusting too much that things would work out, expecting things to be similar to what I am used to back in Oz. I really wish that I had gotten out and done more 'stuff' instead of focussing on job hunting so much (now that I know the job hunting was a total waste of time).
In a way I will be going 'home' bitter and disappointed. When I get the wherewithal lined up for the next try it will probably be Hong Kong that beckons, although I am starting to thing about Japan. Maybe I should learn some Japanese and see if I like it (the way I loved learning some Russian), then try a week or two there as a quick holiday, then if all goes well an extended stay of a couple of months (definitely limited to two months this time!), meanwhile looking at what the job scene is like and then try for a job there whilst I am still in Australia!
Who knows? I might still go the route of retiring to the Australian outback and growing my own food and while away my twilight years playing Unreal Tournament.
What's Thailand like?
Sunday, May 17
Time Whispers in my Mind
I actually had almost a whole blog entry figured out in my head last night, and now I can't recall anything other than the fact that it existed. I can't even recall what I was thinking about. I had a cool title as well.
I have just applied for another three or four jobs. Fitted somewhere in the afternoon amongst playing Imperial Glory. I was playing Stalker Clear Sky but got bored as it gets to the Limansk bit. And before that had played a couple of races through to the end (or near end depending upon the boredom factor) in Dawn of War SoulStorm (I can't really stand DoW2).
My bank froze my VISA card 'cos I hadn't paid $60 (minimum monthly repayment). I logged on, paid off a hundred, then wrote an angry message via the website. I got three messages back from Indians that say lots but doing nothing; just like when I call them, get a call centre in India where people talk at you lots but don't do anything for you.
I went to a couple of temples recently, one on Friday and one on Saturday. I have been doing this during the day and during the week up to now, but the Saturday visit turned out to be more instructive - as usual there were no English speaking staff, and no priests, only lay staff (older volunteers doing manual stuff), but there were more people there. I didn't accost any of them because I would not like to be approached by a 'tourist' when I have gone to a temple to commune with a deity about something. But by observing I learnt more than I knew previously. To the point that I actually bought incense and prayed.
Both temples were meant to be to Guan Gong, one is, He is present in the first as a subsidiary deity. I have been using a list from a site by a committed Christian called Timothy at geocities/slowloris9, which whilst I have found to be inaccurate a couple of times, has provided me with more info than anything else that I have found on the web and has lead me to some wonderful temples.
However...
There only remain two weeks to my visa. If no job turns up in that time then it is back to Oz. And I feel that if this happens then I will give up on deities of all flavours and become a pure rationalist. I will still believe in reincarnation because the evidence has been overwhelming, but I will cease to believe that deities are of any value to mankind. So I have thus put the(se) Chinese Deity(ies) on notice.
Similarly, the cards are still telling me to wait it out until the very end. And I will, but if nothing happens by that point then I shall cease to have any faith in them as well.
Faith. That is what I am finding is challenged at the moment.
I have just applied for another three or four jobs. Fitted somewhere in the afternoon amongst playing Imperial Glory. I was playing Stalker Clear Sky but got bored as it gets to the Limansk bit. And before that had played a couple of races through to the end (or near end depending upon the boredom factor) in Dawn of War SoulStorm (I can't really stand DoW2).
My bank froze my VISA card 'cos I hadn't paid $60 (minimum monthly repayment). I logged on, paid off a hundred, then wrote an angry message via the website. I got three messages back from Indians that say lots but doing nothing; just like when I call them, get a call centre in India where people talk at you lots but don't do anything for you.
I went to a couple of temples recently, one on Friday and one on Saturday. I have been doing this during the day and during the week up to now, but the Saturday visit turned out to be more instructive - as usual there were no English speaking staff, and no priests, only lay staff (older volunteers doing manual stuff), but there were more people there. I didn't accost any of them because I would not like to be approached by a 'tourist' when I have gone to a temple to commune with a deity about something. But by observing I learnt more than I knew previously. To the point that I actually bought incense and prayed.
Both temples were meant to be to Guan Gong, one is, He is present in the first as a subsidiary deity. I have been using a list from a site by a committed Christian called Timothy at geocities/slowloris9, which whilst I have found to be inaccurate a couple of times, has provided me with more info than anything else that I have found on the web and has lead me to some wonderful temples.
However...
There only remain two weeks to my visa. If no job turns up in that time then it is back to Oz. And I feel that if this happens then I will give up on deities of all flavours and become a pure rationalist. I will still believe in reincarnation because the evidence has been overwhelming, but I will cease to believe that deities are of any value to mankind. So I have thus put the(se) Chinese Deity(ies) on notice.
Similarly, the cards are still telling me to wait it out until the very end. And I will, but if nothing happens by that point then I shall cease to have any faith in them as well.
Faith. That is what I am finding is challenged at the moment.
Thursday, May 14
Bad Times
I have had a bad few days. Mostly due to my bank (the National Australia Bank), and the end of my stay in Singapore. Coincidentally as my stay comes to an end, and I run out of money, this bank has chosen to freeze my funds. I was $300 dollars overdrawn on my transaction account (which they gave me a pre-approved overdraft facility of $50,000 one year ago, but apparently never turned on), I had $500 in my savings account, and my credit account, which has a limit of $22,000 was drawn to about $3,500. So I didn't really see the issue. But they obviously did, and have been busy dishonouring a couple of automatic payments that hit my VISA card and charging me a $30 fee for the privilege each time.
So I transferred the $500 positive to the account with $300 negative, then transferred another $500 from my HSBC account to make sure, then paid $100 off the VISA 'cos I think that this is all due to me forgetting a couple of monthly minimum payments (in the order of $50 or $60).
These guys have been told repeatedly that I am overseas and that mail sent to an Australian address is not going to do much good. They have both my email (which works overseas) and my Singapore phone number; they could have contacted me prior to taking such action. Arseholes.
They aren't in this to keep customers, that's for sure.
On another subject; I have a friend that was going to pop in for a night as he passed through Singers on the way to somewhere else, but he won't be. He is now serving time in gaol in Australia for daring to voice provable facts on his website. Ones that caused 'emotional hurt' to some people. Obviously people that can't deal with the truth.
It is strange that when such things are done against White people any complaint is thrown out, but when done by a White person it becomes criminal. That is so racist.
But it serves as another example that Australia is not a free country. It is a mental dictatorship. This is one reason why I wanted to get out.
The Ministry of Manpower website says that employer or authorised third parties can void employment passes online, but doesn't mention the employee being able to, so I expect that I will have to take my passport in as I was intending anyhow. It does say that a thirty day temporary visa is issued on the cancellation. I expect that for an Australian passport it would probably be the standard 'non-visa' allowing a ninety day stay. Which should be ample either way, since I should only need a week or two to dispose of all of my acquired assets. Mostly give them to Ivy I guess, would give some to Jazreel but she is not here, she is still in Jahor.
There is so much that I want to do in life.
But after so many attempts that have been crushed I come to a point where I am wondering if there is any point in still trying. For example I wish to establish a business manufacturing communications security devices. I have gotten half way through the proto-typing and am experienced in designing and writing the software side of the project. And, indeed, have designed encryption algorythms specifically for this project. I did a business plan a few years ago for this project and got an outside expert to write the marketing plan as that was my weakness in my first business attempt.
However, this one stalled in Australia because employing people in Australia is such a pain. Especially in South Australia, it is just not worth it. But Singapore is a totally different story, and so as soon as I had built up some capital I was going to redo and update the prototypes, register a private company, and start by employing some polytech graduates to work a small electronics lab. The final business would possibly have employed up to forty or fifty people.
But the whole Singapore concept is now sinking rapidly. If I return to Australia where I could reasonably expect to re-enter contracting for a year or so then move back into private consulting once my network was rebuilt, I could, in theory, build up enough capital in a few years to return to Singapore and launch a business. Rather than follow the plan I used this time of just coming here and expecting to find work (since finding work was so easy where I came from).
But if I did build up some cash in hand, then should I attempt to build a new life again? Why not just give up on it all? I could buy a property way out in the country, install solar power/heating and wind generators, grow a vegie garden, and retire to spend my twilight years playing computer games and going for country walks. I am just feeling tired from it all. Tired and so disappointed. When I get to that point will I still feel like fighting? Will I still be willing to take on the world again? Or will I just want to give up and get out of it all?
So I transferred the $500 positive to the account with $300 negative, then transferred another $500 from my HSBC account to make sure, then paid $100 off the VISA 'cos I think that this is all due to me forgetting a couple of monthly minimum payments (in the order of $50 or $60).
These guys have been told repeatedly that I am overseas and that mail sent to an Australian address is not going to do much good. They have both my email (which works overseas) and my Singapore phone number; they could have contacted me prior to taking such action. Arseholes.
They aren't in this to keep customers, that's for sure.
On another subject; I have a friend that was going to pop in for a night as he passed through Singers on the way to somewhere else, but he won't be. He is now serving time in gaol in Australia for daring to voice provable facts on his website. Ones that caused 'emotional hurt' to some people. Obviously people that can't deal with the truth.
It is strange that when such things are done against White people any complaint is thrown out, but when done by a White person it becomes criminal. That is so racist.
But it serves as another example that Australia is not a free country. It is a mental dictatorship. This is one reason why I wanted to get out.
The Ministry of Manpower website says that employer or authorised third parties can void employment passes online, but doesn't mention the employee being able to, so I expect that I will have to take my passport in as I was intending anyhow. It does say that a thirty day temporary visa is issued on the cancellation. I expect that for an Australian passport it would probably be the standard 'non-visa' allowing a ninety day stay. Which should be ample either way, since I should only need a week or two to dispose of all of my acquired assets. Mostly give them to Ivy I guess, would give some to Jazreel but she is not here, she is still in Jahor.
There is so much that I want to do in life.
But after so many attempts that have been crushed I come to a point where I am wondering if there is any point in still trying. For example I wish to establish a business manufacturing communications security devices. I have gotten half way through the proto-typing and am experienced in designing and writing the software side of the project. And, indeed, have designed encryption algorythms specifically for this project. I did a business plan a few years ago for this project and got an outside expert to write the marketing plan as that was my weakness in my first business attempt.
However, this one stalled in Australia because employing people in Australia is such a pain. Especially in South Australia, it is just not worth it. But Singapore is a totally different story, and so as soon as I had built up some capital I was going to redo and update the prototypes, register a private company, and start by employing some polytech graduates to work a small electronics lab. The final business would possibly have employed up to forty or fifty people.
But the whole Singapore concept is now sinking rapidly. If I return to Australia where I could reasonably expect to re-enter contracting for a year or so then move back into private consulting once my network was rebuilt, I could, in theory, build up enough capital in a few years to return to Singapore and launch a business. Rather than follow the plan I used this time of just coming here and expecting to find work (since finding work was so easy where I came from).
But if I did build up some cash in hand, then should I attempt to build a new life again? Why not just give up on it all? I could buy a property way out in the country, install solar power/heating and wind generators, grow a vegie garden, and retire to spend my twilight years playing computer games and going for country walks. I am just feeling tired from it all. Tired and so disappointed. When I get to that point will I still feel like fighting? Will I still be willing to take on the world again? Or will I just want to give up and get out of it all?
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