Today I got my PEP cancelled.
I have to the 27th of June to leave Singers.
Thursday, May 28
Sunday, May 24
Sex Education
Good morning children.
Today we are going to talk about penises.
Daddy has a penis, mummy doesn't, she has a vagina.
Daddy loves mummy so much that when she takes her clothes off his penis gets big and hard. This is called an erection.
Then daddy puts his penis into mummy's vagina.
Daddy likes this, and ooooohhh mummy loves it too!
Daddy also puts his penis into mummy's mouth and anus.
And mummy and daddy both like that as well.
He would put it into her ear if it was big enough.
What would mummy think about that?
"Woo Hooo!! One bitch, five holes!" daddy would say.
Daddies are like that.
Today we are going to talk about penises.
Daddy has a penis, mummy doesn't, she has a vagina.
Daddy loves mummy so much that when she takes her clothes off his penis gets big and hard. This is called an erection.
Then daddy puts his penis into mummy's vagina.
Daddy likes this, and ooooohhh mummy loves it too!
Daddy also puts his penis into mummy's mouth and anus.
And mummy and daddy both like that as well.
He would put it into her ear if it was big enough.
What would mummy think about that?
"Woo Hooo!! One bitch, five holes!" daddy would say.
Daddies are like that.
Saturday, May 23
Analytics
Okay, I am just popping in here 'cos I have just checked my google analytics.
Visitors up by a third, nearly all from Singers (no surprise I guess).
The SGers spent an average of just over five minutes on my blog site, which awes me - am I that interesting to read? Most of the non-SGers spent zero time, what does that mean? Click in, see that it is not written in Turkish, click out?
Here's the really wow thing; less than half of the Singers were new visitors. Can you believe that most of them return? (I ask because I can't.) And get this, 40% of them read beyond the first page, actually dug into the past posts.
This is so WOW!!!
If I can magnify this one thousand fold then I will be more popular than Xiaxue(!) and can earn my living blogging. I can dig that, at least you will know that I would blog EVERY DAY!!!! And not leave it blank for nearly TWO WEEKS!!! And that I usually write about three pages (in MS Word, font size 12 - that's where I spell check it since IE doesn't spell check, Firefox does, but I've gone off it for a while). Also I promise that I would live a much more interesting life than now, so you would have something better to read about, my life now is only good for wrapping chips in (sad face).
I can't turn into a pretty girl and cam-whore though.
Visitors up by a third, nearly all from Singers (no surprise I guess).
The SGers spent an average of just over five minutes on my blog site, which awes me - am I that interesting to read? Most of the non-SGers spent zero time, what does that mean? Click in, see that it is not written in Turkish, click out?
Here's the really wow thing; less than half of the Singers were new visitors. Can you believe that most of them return? (I ask because I can't.) And get this, 40% of them read beyond the first page, actually dug into the past posts.
This is so WOW!!!
If I can magnify this one thousand fold then I will be more popular than Xiaxue(!) and can earn my living blogging. I can dig that, at least you will know that I would blog EVERY DAY!!!! And not leave it blank for nearly TWO WEEKS!!! And that I usually write about three pages (in MS Word, font size 12 - that's where I spell check it since IE doesn't spell check, Firefox does, but I've gone off it for a while). Also I promise that I would live a much more interesting life than now, so you would have something better to read about, my life now is only good for wrapping chips in (sad face).
I can't turn into a pretty girl and cam-whore though.
Oh, Yeah...
Got my VISA card going early last week (I think it was). Transferred from my SG HSBC account to pay off the requisite amounts, gave it a couple of working days, then called their financial hounds section. Which was okay, as they turned out to be Australian, so I got some communicating done - something that does not happen with their Indian call centre or Indian email centre, lots of talk but no service.
And got the washing machine going, service man came around the day after I called, writing an email was a waste of time, but I thought that it could get forwarded to the correct team more easily, doesn't work like that though, just came back three days later "please phone". The problem was the most basic of design faults, a fragile plastic tab juts down on the lid and contains a metallic strip that activates the door open / door closed switch. Naturally fragile bits of plastic get snapped off, any idiot could figure that out, but not the design engineers at LG. Took less than two minutes to fix, just opened the top up and wired the switch out, then warned me that it won't stop when the lid is opened now.
Spent the day at home 'cos the repairman was coming and, to be honest, I just don't feel like doing anything right now, so played Fear 2 all day long. How productive, hey?
And got the washing machine going, service man came around the day after I called, writing an email was a waste of time, but I thought that it could get forwarded to the correct team more easily, doesn't work like that though, just came back three days later "please phone". The problem was the most basic of design faults, a fragile plastic tab juts down on the lid and contains a metallic strip that activates the door open / door closed switch. Naturally fragile bits of plastic get snapped off, any idiot could figure that out, but not the design engineers at LG. Took less than two minutes to fix, just opened the top up and wired the switch out, then warned me that it won't stop when the lid is opened now.
Spent the day at home 'cos the repairman was coming and, to be honest, I just don't feel like doing anything right now, so played Fear 2 all day long. How productive, hey?
Thursday, May 21
Drown my Sorrows
I can't believe that it is Thursday already!
Where has the week gone?
Okay I was aware of Tuesday, I went to the cluster of temples at Tampines, I looked at all of them, but only the Guan Gong temple kindled any attraction. The two old guys there, as there are usually lay people at temples and rarely any priests - religion is so 'self service' in Singapore! Anyhow, the two old guys couldn't speak any English, as usual!, but they were friendly and as helpful as they could be and for the first time I got to pray at a Chinese temple. When I came back, after looking at the other temples, there was a girl there that could speak English and showed me how to pray properly Chinese style, which was very educational and just what I wanted.
Never the less...
it is Thursday and I will be voiding my work pass on Friday next week (end of the month, being the last month I can stay without finding work) so Guan Gong has one week only(!) to deliver.
I am so fed up with being disappointed by deities that if this one lets me down then I will stop paying them any mind and become some sort of esoteric rationalist, believing in the existence of the non-physical but deeming it to be meaningless. In my experience so far Gods never deliver on what they promise. Nature spirits deliver on what you ask of them, but they totally don't understand the constraints that such requests come packaged in for humans and so I end up getting what I specifically asked for, but in a manner or with attendant consequences that far outweigh the benefits of the gift. So I won't ever be doing that again.
My washing machine is not working, it gives a 'door open' alarm when the door is closed and will not proceed. It does the 'get everything wet' bit, so now I have a stack of towels that smell and will need to be re-washed, and perhaps just thrown out. I also have a stack of washing that needs to be done and will have to visit a laundromat. Contacted LG (of course, LG, you could see that coming couldn't you? Well, my landlady bought cheap shit, what can I say) and they took two and a half days to tell me to ring this other number and have my receipt when they come (because it is new). I have passed all of this on to the landlady and am still waiting for a reply, so I am expecting total time out of action of at least two weeks. When it is such a small machine, and I have only the contents of one suitcase, so I do two or three loads every week, the laundromat will be a necessity.
Incidentally, I will have to tell her mid/late next week that I haven't found work and will be heading back to Australia. That gives her the one months notice, and I will use the first week or two of June to clean up and clean out, then fly back in the second week. My bond being forfeit as the break fee. (I was insistent on getting a diplomatic clause in the lease agreement, but it was fixed to only the six month point and incurs a one month break fee.)
I have only let a couple of people in my 'business network' know that I will be returning, and that only yesterday, but I already have one possible deal in the process of being lined up. See how different it is from Singers? And it will pay four times what I was offered in SG if I can get it via my private company and don't have to go through an agency (which sometimes have to do for government contracts).
I have learnt from this experience though.
Not just that SG doesn't take my line of work seriously and so only pays less than half what I can get anywhere else on Earth. And not just that coming here expecting to be able to transfer my career to another country and (business) culture was erroneous and that I should have gotten the job lined up before I came here, or came here to start a business (with all of its attendant components prepared to go in advance). No, I have also had to face a number of flaws imbedded within my character - but I am still unsure of what to do about them. For example being so lackadaisical about things, trusting too much that things would work out, expecting things to be similar to what I am used to back in Oz. I really wish that I had gotten out and done more 'stuff' instead of focussing on job hunting so much (now that I know the job hunting was a total waste of time).
In a way I will be going 'home' bitter and disappointed. When I get the wherewithal lined up for the next try it will probably be Hong Kong that beckons, although I am starting to thing about Japan. Maybe I should learn some Japanese and see if I like it (the way I loved learning some Russian), then try a week or two there as a quick holiday, then if all goes well an extended stay of a couple of months (definitely limited to two months this time!), meanwhile looking at what the job scene is like and then try for a job there whilst I am still in Australia!
Who knows? I might still go the route of retiring to the Australian outback and growing my own food and while away my twilight years playing Unreal Tournament.
What's Thailand like?
Where has the week gone?
Okay I was aware of Tuesday, I went to the cluster of temples at Tampines, I looked at all of them, but only the Guan Gong temple kindled any attraction. The two old guys there, as there are usually lay people at temples and rarely any priests - religion is so 'self service' in Singapore! Anyhow, the two old guys couldn't speak any English, as usual!, but they were friendly and as helpful as they could be and for the first time I got to pray at a Chinese temple. When I came back, after looking at the other temples, there was a girl there that could speak English and showed me how to pray properly Chinese style, which was very educational and just what I wanted.
Never the less...
it is Thursday and I will be voiding my work pass on Friday next week (end of the month, being the last month I can stay without finding work) so Guan Gong has one week only(!) to deliver.
I am so fed up with being disappointed by deities that if this one lets me down then I will stop paying them any mind and become some sort of esoteric rationalist, believing in the existence of the non-physical but deeming it to be meaningless. In my experience so far Gods never deliver on what they promise. Nature spirits deliver on what you ask of them, but they totally don't understand the constraints that such requests come packaged in for humans and so I end up getting what I specifically asked for, but in a manner or with attendant consequences that far outweigh the benefits of the gift. So I won't ever be doing that again.
My washing machine is not working, it gives a 'door open' alarm when the door is closed and will not proceed. It does the 'get everything wet' bit, so now I have a stack of towels that smell and will need to be re-washed, and perhaps just thrown out. I also have a stack of washing that needs to be done and will have to visit a laundromat. Contacted LG (of course, LG, you could see that coming couldn't you? Well, my landlady bought cheap shit, what can I say) and they took two and a half days to tell me to ring this other number and have my receipt when they come (because it is new). I have passed all of this on to the landlady and am still waiting for a reply, so I am expecting total time out of action of at least two weeks. When it is such a small machine, and I have only the contents of one suitcase, so I do two or three loads every week, the laundromat will be a necessity.
Incidentally, I will have to tell her mid/late next week that I haven't found work and will be heading back to Australia. That gives her the one months notice, and I will use the first week or two of June to clean up and clean out, then fly back in the second week. My bond being forfeit as the break fee. (I was insistent on getting a diplomatic clause in the lease agreement, but it was fixed to only the six month point and incurs a one month break fee.)
I have only let a couple of people in my 'business network' know that I will be returning, and that only yesterday, but I already have one possible deal in the process of being lined up. See how different it is from Singers? And it will pay four times what I was offered in SG if I can get it via my private company and don't have to go through an agency (which sometimes have to do for government contracts).
I have learnt from this experience though.
Not just that SG doesn't take my line of work seriously and so only pays less than half what I can get anywhere else on Earth. And not just that coming here expecting to be able to transfer my career to another country and (business) culture was erroneous and that I should have gotten the job lined up before I came here, or came here to start a business (with all of its attendant components prepared to go in advance). No, I have also had to face a number of flaws imbedded within my character - but I am still unsure of what to do about them. For example being so lackadaisical about things, trusting too much that things would work out, expecting things to be similar to what I am used to back in Oz. I really wish that I had gotten out and done more 'stuff' instead of focussing on job hunting so much (now that I know the job hunting was a total waste of time).
In a way I will be going 'home' bitter and disappointed. When I get the wherewithal lined up for the next try it will probably be Hong Kong that beckons, although I am starting to thing about Japan. Maybe I should learn some Japanese and see if I like it (the way I loved learning some Russian), then try a week or two there as a quick holiday, then if all goes well an extended stay of a couple of months (definitely limited to two months this time!), meanwhile looking at what the job scene is like and then try for a job there whilst I am still in Australia!
Who knows? I might still go the route of retiring to the Australian outback and growing my own food and while away my twilight years playing Unreal Tournament.
What's Thailand like?
Sunday, May 17
Time Whispers in my Mind
I actually had almost a whole blog entry figured out in my head last night, and now I can't recall anything other than the fact that it existed. I can't even recall what I was thinking about. I had a cool title as well.
I have just applied for another three or four jobs. Fitted somewhere in the afternoon amongst playing Imperial Glory. I was playing Stalker Clear Sky but got bored as it gets to the Limansk bit. And before that had played a couple of races through to the end (or near end depending upon the boredom factor) in Dawn of War SoulStorm (I can't really stand DoW2).
My bank froze my VISA card 'cos I hadn't paid $60 (minimum monthly repayment). I logged on, paid off a hundred, then wrote an angry message via the website. I got three messages back from Indians that say lots but doing nothing; just like when I call them, get a call centre in India where people talk at you lots but don't do anything for you.
I went to a couple of temples recently, one on Friday and one on Saturday. I have been doing this during the day and during the week up to now, but the Saturday visit turned out to be more instructive - as usual there were no English speaking staff, and no priests, only lay staff (older volunteers doing manual stuff), but there were more people there. I didn't accost any of them because I would not like to be approached by a 'tourist' when I have gone to a temple to commune with a deity about something. But by observing I learnt more than I knew previously. To the point that I actually bought incense and prayed.
Both temples were meant to be to Guan Gong, one is, He is present in the first as a subsidiary deity. I have been using a list from a site by a committed Christian called Timothy at geocities/slowloris9, which whilst I have found to be inaccurate a couple of times, has provided me with more info than anything else that I have found on the web and has lead me to some wonderful temples.
However...
There only remain two weeks to my visa. If no job turns up in that time then it is back to Oz. And I feel that if this happens then I will give up on deities of all flavours and become a pure rationalist. I will still believe in reincarnation because the evidence has been overwhelming, but I will cease to believe that deities are of any value to mankind. So I have thus put the(se) Chinese Deity(ies) on notice.
Similarly, the cards are still telling me to wait it out until the very end. And I will, but if nothing happens by that point then I shall cease to have any faith in them as well.
Faith. That is what I am finding is challenged at the moment.
I have just applied for another three or four jobs. Fitted somewhere in the afternoon amongst playing Imperial Glory. I was playing Stalker Clear Sky but got bored as it gets to the Limansk bit. And before that had played a couple of races through to the end (or near end depending upon the boredom factor) in Dawn of War SoulStorm (I can't really stand DoW2).
My bank froze my VISA card 'cos I hadn't paid $60 (minimum monthly repayment). I logged on, paid off a hundred, then wrote an angry message via the website. I got three messages back from Indians that say lots but doing nothing; just like when I call them, get a call centre in India where people talk at you lots but don't do anything for you.
I went to a couple of temples recently, one on Friday and one on Saturday. I have been doing this during the day and during the week up to now, but the Saturday visit turned out to be more instructive - as usual there were no English speaking staff, and no priests, only lay staff (older volunteers doing manual stuff), but there were more people there. I didn't accost any of them because I would not like to be approached by a 'tourist' when I have gone to a temple to commune with a deity about something. But by observing I learnt more than I knew previously. To the point that I actually bought incense and prayed.
Both temples were meant to be to Guan Gong, one is, He is present in the first as a subsidiary deity. I have been using a list from a site by a committed Christian called Timothy at geocities/slowloris9, which whilst I have found to be inaccurate a couple of times, has provided me with more info than anything else that I have found on the web and has lead me to some wonderful temples.
However...
There only remain two weeks to my visa. If no job turns up in that time then it is back to Oz. And I feel that if this happens then I will give up on deities of all flavours and become a pure rationalist. I will still believe in reincarnation because the evidence has been overwhelming, but I will cease to believe that deities are of any value to mankind. So I have thus put the(se) Chinese Deity(ies) on notice.
Similarly, the cards are still telling me to wait it out until the very end. And I will, but if nothing happens by that point then I shall cease to have any faith in them as well.
Faith. That is what I am finding is challenged at the moment.
Thursday, May 14
Bad Times
I have had a bad few days. Mostly due to my bank (the National Australia Bank), and the end of my stay in Singapore. Coincidentally as my stay comes to an end, and I run out of money, this bank has chosen to freeze my funds. I was $300 dollars overdrawn on my transaction account (which they gave me a pre-approved overdraft facility of $50,000 one year ago, but apparently never turned on), I had $500 in my savings account, and my credit account, which has a limit of $22,000 was drawn to about $3,500. So I didn't really see the issue. But they obviously did, and have been busy dishonouring a couple of automatic payments that hit my VISA card and charging me a $30 fee for the privilege each time.
So I transferred the $500 positive to the account with $300 negative, then transferred another $500 from my HSBC account to make sure, then paid $100 off the VISA 'cos I think that this is all due to me forgetting a couple of monthly minimum payments (in the order of $50 or $60).
These guys have been told repeatedly that I am overseas and that mail sent to an Australian address is not going to do much good. They have both my email (which works overseas) and my Singapore phone number; they could have contacted me prior to taking such action. Arseholes.
They aren't in this to keep customers, that's for sure.
On another subject; I have a friend that was going to pop in for a night as he passed through Singers on the way to somewhere else, but he won't be. He is now serving time in gaol in Australia for daring to voice provable facts on his website. Ones that caused 'emotional hurt' to some people. Obviously people that can't deal with the truth.
It is strange that when such things are done against White people any complaint is thrown out, but when done by a White person it becomes criminal. That is so racist.
But it serves as another example that Australia is not a free country. It is a mental dictatorship. This is one reason why I wanted to get out.
The Ministry of Manpower website says that employer or authorised third parties can void employment passes online, but doesn't mention the employee being able to, so I expect that I will have to take my passport in as I was intending anyhow. It does say that a thirty day temporary visa is issued on the cancellation. I expect that for an Australian passport it would probably be the standard 'non-visa' allowing a ninety day stay. Which should be ample either way, since I should only need a week or two to dispose of all of my acquired assets. Mostly give them to Ivy I guess, would give some to Jazreel but she is not here, she is still in Jahor.
There is so much that I want to do in life.
But after so many attempts that have been crushed I come to a point where I am wondering if there is any point in still trying. For example I wish to establish a business manufacturing communications security devices. I have gotten half way through the proto-typing and am experienced in designing and writing the software side of the project. And, indeed, have designed encryption algorythms specifically for this project. I did a business plan a few years ago for this project and got an outside expert to write the marketing plan as that was my weakness in my first business attempt.
However, this one stalled in Australia because employing people in Australia is such a pain. Especially in South Australia, it is just not worth it. But Singapore is a totally different story, and so as soon as I had built up some capital I was going to redo and update the prototypes, register a private company, and start by employing some polytech graduates to work a small electronics lab. The final business would possibly have employed up to forty or fifty people.
But the whole Singapore concept is now sinking rapidly. If I return to Australia where I could reasonably expect to re-enter contracting for a year or so then move back into private consulting once my network was rebuilt, I could, in theory, build up enough capital in a few years to return to Singapore and launch a business. Rather than follow the plan I used this time of just coming here and expecting to find work (since finding work was so easy where I came from).
But if I did build up some cash in hand, then should I attempt to build a new life again? Why not just give up on it all? I could buy a property way out in the country, install solar power/heating and wind generators, grow a vegie garden, and retire to spend my twilight years playing computer games and going for country walks. I am just feeling tired from it all. Tired and so disappointed. When I get to that point will I still feel like fighting? Will I still be willing to take on the world again? Or will I just want to give up and get out of it all?
So I transferred the $500 positive to the account with $300 negative, then transferred another $500 from my HSBC account to make sure, then paid $100 off the VISA 'cos I think that this is all due to me forgetting a couple of monthly minimum payments (in the order of $50 or $60).
These guys have been told repeatedly that I am overseas and that mail sent to an Australian address is not going to do much good. They have both my email (which works overseas) and my Singapore phone number; they could have contacted me prior to taking such action. Arseholes.
They aren't in this to keep customers, that's for sure.
On another subject; I have a friend that was going to pop in for a night as he passed through Singers on the way to somewhere else, but he won't be. He is now serving time in gaol in Australia for daring to voice provable facts on his website. Ones that caused 'emotional hurt' to some people. Obviously people that can't deal with the truth.
It is strange that when such things are done against White people any complaint is thrown out, but when done by a White person it becomes criminal. That is so racist.
But it serves as another example that Australia is not a free country. It is a mental dictatorship. This is one reason why I wanted to get out.
The Ministry of Manpower website says that employer or authorised third parties can void employment passes online, but doesn't mention the employee being able to, so I expect that I will have to take my passport in as I was intending anyhow. It does say that a thirty day temporary visa is issued on the cancellation. I expect that for an Australian passport it would probably be the standard 'non-visa' allowing a ninety day stay. Which should be ample either way, since I should only need a week or two to dispose of all of my acquired assets. Mostly give them to Ivy I guess, would give some to Jazreel but she is not here, she is still in Jahor.
There is so much that I want to do in life.
But after so many attempts that have been crushed I come to a point where I am wondering if there is any point in still trying. For example I wish to establish a business manufacturing communications security devices. I have gotten half way through the proto-typing and am experienced in designing and writing the software side of the project. And, indeed, have designed encryption algorythms specifically for this project. I did a business plan a few years ago for this project and got an outside expert to write the marketing plan as that was my weakness in my first business attempt.
However, this one stalled in Australia because employing people in Australia is such a pain. Especially in South Australia, it is just not worth it. But Singapore is a totally different story, and so as soon as I had built up some capital I was going to redo and update the prototypes, register a private company, and start by employing some polytech graduates to work a small electronics lab. The final business would possibly have employed up to forty or fifty people.
But the whole Singapore concept is now sinking rapidly. If I return to Australia where I could reasonably expect to re-enter contracting for a year or so then move back into private consulting once my network was rebuilt, I could, in theory, build up enough capital in a few years to return to Singapore and launch a business. Rather than follow the plan I used this time of just coming here and expecting to find work (since finding work was so easy where I came from).
But if I did build up some cash in hand, then should I attempt to build a new life again? Why not just give up on it all? I could buy a property way out in the country, install solar power/heating and wind generators, grow a vegie garden, and retire to spend my twilight years playing computer games and going for country walks. I am just feeling tired from it all. Tired and so disappointed. When I get to that point will I still feel like fighting? Will I still be willing to take on the world again? Or will I just want to give up and get out of it all?
Sunday, May 10
The New Coming
Hmmm
Okay, it's hot, 28 where I am sitting and I am sweating. My aircons are set to 23 and it is 25 (which I find tolerably comfortable) in the bedrooms which is where the aircons blow. I am immediately outside of them though, and that one and a half metres makes a big difference.
I found another damnable bug this morning, as I lay in bed after awakening I saw it crawling on the ceiling. On the ceiling! I haven't been bitten (that I have noticed) by one for ages now, and had thought I had gotten rid of them. I have now once again cleaned out that bedroom and sprayed it again.
Maybe they are not from some walk along the beach? Maybe they are coming in from next door? Do you think that the crowd of individuals crammed in there may have lower hygiene standards? There were so many bicycles outside their door last night that they came half way over the front of my apartment on both sides of the walk-way. Maybe I need to spray surface poison around my doorway?
Have been inundated with emails from the yahoo group. But most are part of the thread that I am chatting in (one of three main participants). Mostly about what is the bigger threat to traditional Chinese religion in Singapore, one guy says Xianity and I say Buddhism. He says 'cos it is a big 'now' threat, I say Xianity has come and gone before in China's history, maybe this will as well, and it is an external threat. I feel that Buddhism is a greater threat because it is internal; it is insidiously creeping into Taoist temples and mythology, and this is exactly what Xianity did in Europe a thousand years ago. You may fight off the external threat to find that your own home has been occupied by your erstwhile 'guest'.
This discussion has gone so much more congenially than it would have in Australia. Even if I had been having it with another follower of our traditional (pre-Xian) religion it would have ended up heated. And it can be conducted openly here, whereas in Oz it would have been a secret thing, any posts to internet groups would be undertaken anonymously.
So there, in two examples of my life on this day, you have the two sides to Singers that I am wrestling with.
Okay, it's hot, 28 where I am sitting and I am sweating. My aircons are set to 23 and it is 25 (which I find tolerably comfortable) in the bedrooms which is where the aircons blow. I am immediately outside of them though, and that one and a half metres makes a big difference.
I found another damnable bug this morning, as I lay in bed after awakening I saw it crawling on the ceiling. On the ceiling! I haven't been bitten (that I have noticed) by one for ages now, and had thought I had gotten rid of them. I have now once again cleaned out that bedroom and sprayed it again.
Maybe they are not from some walk along the beach? Maybe they are coming in from next door? Do you think that the crowd of individuals crammed in there may have lower hygiene standards? There were so many bicycles outside their door last night that they came half way over the front of my apartment on both sides of the walk-way. Maybe I need to spray surface poison around my doorway?
Have been inundated with emails from the yahoo group. But most are part of the thread that I am chatting in (one of three main participants). Mostly about what is the bigger threat to traditional Chinese religion in Singapore, one guy says Xianity and I say Buddhism. He says 'cos it is a big 'now' threat, I say Xianity has come and gone before in China's history, maybe this will as well, and it is an external threat. I feel that Buddhism is a greater threat because it is internal; it is insidiously creeping into Taoist temples and mythology, and this is exactly what Xianity did in Europe a thousand years ago. You may fight off the external threat to find that your own home has been occupied by your erstwhile 'guest'.
This discussion has gone so much more congenially than it would have in Australia. Even if I had been having it with another follower of our traditional (pre-Xian) religion it would have ended up heated. And it can be conducted openly here, whereas in Oz it would have been a secret thing, any posts to internet groups would be undertaken anonymously.
So there, in two examples of my life on this day, you have the two sides to Singers that I am wrestling with.
Saturday, May 9
New Post
Yeah, stupid title, but who cares? After all, who reads this anyhow?
Tomorrow is Mothers Day. That is Mothers Day as in the US one, the day honouring mothers, not Mothering Sunday as in the UK which is completely different and is a religious festival honouring the mother of the supposed christ and happens 12 days later. I have set my alarm and will be making an early phone call to my mum back in Oz.
I have joined a yahoo group on Taoism in Singapore. The address given to me by a lovely lady at the Taoist Cultural Centre. Naturally, I am already engaged in a hot discussion, namely about the similarities between what Xianity did to Europe and what Buddhism is doing to Taoism (well, Chinese religious beliefs, philosophy, and people in general).
And I am psyching myself up to the (most probable) inevitability of my returning to South Australia in two or three weeks. The chance of finding a decent job here in SG in two weeks when I haven't found one in three months being negligible.
Engaging in such a discussion in Australia would have a very different dynamic. Here in SG I feel free, liberated. Followers of our faith having been in forced hiding for over a thousand years; yes, technically the open practice of our religion is legal in Oz, but the reality is not so pretty. Here in SG I find many similarities between my natural faith and what I perceive to be the natural faith of what I had hoped would become my adopted country. Naturally I was therefore horrified by the incursions that Buddhism is making into Taoism. (I actually have difficulty with that term, and would prefer to use Shenism, but some readers might be at a loss on that one.) (Hello? Readers??? There are some???)
When I return (when? should?) such discussion in public venues would cease for me, to be restrained to friends and family, people that I know only after long association that I can trust.
Tomorrow is Mothers Day. That is Mothers Day as in the US one, the day honouring mothers, not Mothering Sunday as in the UK which is completely different and is a religious festival honouring the mother of the supposed christ and happens 12 days later. I have set my alarm and will be making an early phone call to my mum back in Oz.
I have joined a yahoo group on Taoism in Singapore. The address given to me by a lovely lady at the Taoist Cultural Centre. Naturally, I am already engaged in a hot discussion, namely about the similarities between what Xianity did to Europe and what Buddhism is doing to Taoism (well, Chinese religious beliefs, philosophy, and people in general).
And I am psyching myself up to the (most probable) inevitability of my returning to South Australia in two or three weeks. The chance of finding a decent job here in SG in two weeks when I haven't found one in three months being negligible.
Engaging in such a discussion in Australia would have a very different dynamic. Here in SG I feel free, liberated. Followers of our faith having been in forced hiding for over a thousand years; yes, technically the open practice of our religion is legal in Oz, but the reality is not so pretty. Here in SG I find many similarities between my natural faith and what I perceive to be the natural faith of what I had hoped would become my adopted country. Naturally I was therefore horrified by the incursions that Buddhism is making into Taoism. (I actually have difficulty with that term, and would prefer to use Shenism, but some readers might be at a loss on that one.) (Hello? Readers??? There are some???)
When I return (when? should?) such discussion in public venues would cease for me, to be restrained to friends and family, people that I know only after long association that I can trust.
Wednesday, May 6
Meanderings off to the Side
So maybe some people are saying "Yaayyy!!! Thank God the Christians were defeated!" But personally, if I had the choice between constrained, but hetero, Xians or man-hating lesbian feminists then it would not be the latter that I would prefer.
Strange, you may think, because my people have been fighting a war of survival against the Xians for a thousand years. You may have noticed me use these sort of terms before, and make reference to the thousand year reign of terror that Xianity has put Europe (and Europeans) under, or refer to the tens of millions that Xianity has murdered in this millennia long nightmare. And that is just of my race, world-wide they have probably murdered more than a hundred million; easily making them the most evil religion on Earth, but not the most evil concept - Socialism has murdered at least three times more people in just the last one century, Moa's Red Terror (also called the 'Cultural Revolution') claimed nearly two hundred million.
I mention this, that is the stuff about my thousand year enemies, because I was collected something interesting from the Taoist Cultural Centre yesterday. Yes, I finally got to talk to someone about Chinese religion!!! Went to the temple complex on Bedok North Avenue 4 to see if I could see someone from the Taoist Federation, that didn't quite happen, but two girls from the cultural centre talked to me and showed me around and then a priest joined us and explained some things and then I spoke to an academic at the cultural centre and got a free copy of the Tao book - which is itself presenting me with problems.
Anyhow, I go this little plastic card holder with a 'Declaration of Religious Harmony' written on the back. This is so hard to come to terms with when I have this history of a millennia of oppression behind me. I just cannot 'calm down' when it comes to the Xian/Judean/Islamic construct, and for me that expands to include Baha'i, Druze, Sikh directly, and Buddhism indirectly. So, adjusting to Singapore's requirement for social harmony may be a little difficult for me, whereas in Australia I (and all other followers of our original European religion) may have been brutally oppressed, but at least I had grown comfortable with my anger.
Also can't help but notice that the IRO covers ten religions, but does not include any form of faith native to the Aryan/European/Caucasian people. Just this assumption by outsiders that all white people are Xian. Even at the Taoist Cultural Centre when I started to speak about the religious structure and history of our people I would get asked if I was not Xian, to which I would calmly reply no, I am not, and further it is not a natural religion of our people, but rather an outside construct (not mentioning though that it was forced upon our race by centuries of violence and murder).
So if I do stay in Singers then it shall force upon me a higher level of social maturity. Am I up to this?
Strange, you may think, because my people have been fighting a war of survival against the Xians for a thousand years. You may have noticed me use these sort of terms before, and make reference to the thousand year reign of terror that Xianity has put Europe (and Europeans) under, or refer to the tens of millions that Xianity has murdered in this millennia long nightmare. And that is just of my race, world-wide they have probably murdered more than a hundred million; easily making them the most evil religion on Earth, but not the most evil concept - Socialism has murdered at least three times more people in just the last one century, Moa's Red Terror (also called the 'Cultural Revolution') claimed nearly two hundred million.
I mention this, that is the stuff about my thousand year enemies, because I was collected something interesting from the Taoist Cultural Centre yesterday. Yes, I finally got to talk to someone about Chinese religion!!! Went to the temple complex on Bedok North Avenue 4 to see if I could see someone from the Taoist Federation, that didn't quite happen, but two girls from the cultural centre talked to me and showed me around and then a priest joined us and explained some things and then I spoke to an academic at the cultural centre and got a free copy of the Tao book - which is itself presenting me with problems.
Anyhow, I go this little plastic card holder with a 'Declaration of Religious Harmony' written on the back. This is so hard to come to terms with when I have this history of a millennia of oppression behind me. I just cannot 'calm down' when it comes to the Xian/Judean/Islamic construct, and for me that expands to include Baha'i, Druze, Sikh directly, and Buddhism indirectly. So, adjusting to Singapore's requirement for social harmony may be a little difficult for me, whereas in Australia I (and all other followers of our original European religion) may have been brutally oppressed, but at least I had grown comfortable with my anger.
Also can't help but notice that the IRO covers ten religions, but does not include any form of faith native to the Aryan/European/Caucasian people. Just this assumption by outsiders that all white people are Xian. Even at the Taoist Cultural Centre when I started to speak about the religious structure and history of our people I would get asked if I was not Xian, to which I would calmly reply no, I am not, and further it is not a natural religion of our people, but rather an outside construct (not mentioning though that it was forced upon our race by centuries of violence and murder).
So if I do stay in Singers then it shall force upon me a higher level of social maturity. Am I up to this?
Friday, May 1
Consequences
Some blog that I read in the last couple of days set me to thinking. He was writing about the take-over of AWARE by a bunch of non-lesbian non-man hating and probably not-so-feminazi women. He didn't like the idea, and was defending the old regimes practice of using access to school counselling to deliver pro-lesbian propaganda to young girls; something along the lines that female homosexuality wouldn't get them pregnant so it was alright.
He then went on to state that he was going to cancel his credit card because the leader of this coup worked at that bank and he asked his readers to do the same, and to inform the bank of the why. Presumably the result of this is to render the woman unemployed.
So, if someone reading your blog that happens to a) disagree with your pro-lesbian feminazi stance and happened to b) work at one of your employer's larger clients took it upon himself or herself to suggest that their company should withdraw its support from your employer and when explaining the why to your employer stated that it was because you were trying to turn their daughters into lesbians, what would the consequences be?
Long shot maybe, but these things have a habit of coming back to bite you.
On a totally different note;
Today is the First of May; this is the month of decision. This is the final month my PEP will be valid without working, so if I don't find a job in the next three weeks it will be goodbye to Singapore.
Yes, I will have to leave Singers and its constant stream of job offers pitched at around one third of what I get in Australia. And no, I am not going to take one of them just to remain here until I find something decent.
Lesson learnt: don't go somewhere and then try to find work, keep working where you are whilst trying to get a job where you want to go.
Except that I tried that before; I came to Singers and visited the agencies whilst I was here but then never heard from them when I went back to Oz. Same as I haven't heard much from them this time 'round.
Yes, it's sad, but life must go on.
He then went on to state that he was going to cancel his credit card because the leader of this coup worked at that bank and he asked his readers to do the same, and to inform the bank of the why. Presumably the result of this is to render the woman unemployed.
So, if someone reading your blog that happens to a) disagree with your pro-lesbian feminazi stance and happened to b) work at one of your employer's larger clients took it upon himself or herself to suggest that their company should withdraw its support from your employer and when explaining the why to your employer stated that it was because you were trying to turn their daughters into lesbians, what would the consequences be?
Long shot maybe, but these things have a habit of coming back to bite you.
On a totally different note;
Today is the First of May; this is the month of decision. This is the final month my PEP will be valid without working, so if I don't find a job in the next three weeks it will be goodbye to Singapore.
Yes, I will have to leave Singers and its constant stream of job offers pitched at around one third of what I get in Australia. And no, I am not going to take one of them just to remain here until I find something decent.
Lesson learnt: don't go somewhere and then try to find work, keep working where you are whilst trying to get a job where you want to go.
Except that I tried that before; I came to Singers and visited the agencies whilst I was here but then never heard from them when I went back to Oz. Same as I haven't heard much from them this time 'round.
Yes, it's sad, but life must go on.
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